Confessions of a victim of narcissistic abuse No1

In my journey, I want to share a story that has been deeply painful and challenging. It all started with the arrival of our first child. Before that, my partner was wonderful, but things changed drastically when our son was born. The child was restless and had difficulty eating. I found myself taking on most of the responsibilities, feeding him multiple times a day and throughout the night, as my partner showed little interest in caring for our child. His jealousy towards our son was palpable from the beginning, and he often demanded my attention, neglecting the needs of our child.

As the years passed, the situation deteriorated. His drinking became excessive, and our home was filled with empty and full bottles. When our second child arrived, I discovered messages on his phone from another woman detailing our private life. Confronting him led to constant fights and emotional abuse. He insulted me, accused me of infidelity, and even became physically aggressive at times.

Despite the challenges, I tried to salvage the relationship, but it became increasingly toxic. He belittled me, controlled my actions, and manipulated situations to his advantage. I was isolated from friends and family, living in constant fear and uncertainty. Even when I attempted to assert my independence, he resisted, tearing up divorce papers and making false promises.

Things reached a breaking point when he introduced our children to a new girlfriend shortly after ending our relationship. He continued to blame me for everything, gaslighting me and making me doubt my own sanity. His behavior became erratic, leaving me questioning my own judgment.

Today, I find myself grappling with the aftermath of this tumultuous relationship. He denies my rightful belongings, accuses me of being mentally unstable, and dismisses the concerns of our children. The constant manipulation and emotional abuse have taken a toll on my self-esteem and mental well-being.

Sharing this story is my way of acknowledging the pain I’ve endured and seeking the strength to move forward. Despite the challenges, I refuse to let his actions define me. I am determined to rebuild my life and provide a better future for myself and my children, free from the toxic environment we once called home.